Hidden stories.

Dear Sunflower,

       So it's been around 5 months I've know you. I've to admit we still don't know each other well, however I've fallen deeply for you despite just 5 months. Probably the 1st month was getting to know you and feelings start to develop quickly. However, I'm just hoping something that will only happen like 1% out of 100% or even lesser. I don't know why am i still holding on sometimes, but i just can't move on or give up despite the duration is only like 4 months.

      I only can keep all this feelings to myself and cover it with something else so it won't be that obvious. I can only tell my feelings for you to some of my friends but not YOU. All these stuff makes me feel sad, lonely, emotional at times. The need(desire) to "see" you increases even though we just met each other. Probably we didn't bid goodbye to each other properly because I was sleeping.

      Sometimes I'm thinking of you getting into a relationship, just thoughts and imagination was nearly enough to drown me in my river of sorrow. I know it's selfish but I hope you won't get into any relationships unless that person its really someone whom you are spending your life with. Sometimes your actions, words and our interaction makes me feel that I might have a chance to get together with you. But deep down in my heart, I know it's hardly possible but I won't stop hoping, I don't know why however, I do know that I don't want to question my feelings for you any more.

     Be it that it's an one sided of me, be it comments of me being stupid and stubborn. I don't care any more because right NOW, this moment! I do know that I love you and that's enough for me.



-N