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All I need is you . When I'm tired , I just need a kiss from you to keep me awake . When im sad , all I need is a hug from you and I will be happy .

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Post 15 31/07/2011

Hi readers , yea so yesterday was a saturday , so instead of nua-ing at home of cos go work♥ la . I Love this job alot man , Its like idk how to say ? Its like you are having fun while earning money too . Even when you feel tired its still worth it , and of cos this job allows me to find someone (maybe not someone) who i can really heart 2 heart talk with , pouring out all my DARKEST secret LOL ! Yea , so yesterday i targetted Huimin , doing with her maciam do with yanhao like that but more fun than yanhao -.- . Its like joke and serious sometimes , Buey tahan , then when with yanhao not even a joke was made -.- ARGH ! Talking about all this makes me remember one thing . Oh i forgot again LOL , My stm is getting more serious and serious , 1 fine day i will even forget why am i at work LOL. Lets all go back to my work yesterday while i still trying to remember what was i going to post ok ? So reached chinese garden at 3.30 then we went to a coffee shop and wait chris to finish his chicken wing rice . While xuanyin ,huimin and me was drinking our drinks . After that we went to our block , At first i saw my block is a excutive unit i was like OMG , here i come monehh ~ But after doing with huimin i then notice the block is so lousy sia , Then skip all the working part , total i sold 10 lorh. After that went back to office earlier than usual to pray . While selina and her friends with me was going to clementi , first we went to buy KOI then after they went to cotton to buy slippers ? DAMN FUNNY I TELL YOU . Cos the slipper with each purchase is $5 , but its like 1 shoe need pay full price ? So they all call me to buy 1 bottle of mineral water LOL then all 3 slippers will be $5 each , Wa cnnt tahan them sia , i was like so omg so embarrassing la ! After went to virtualand to play jubeat ~ I was like owning selina . Ha , but fxck , i forgotten to bring my E-Pass out thus all my new record are not saven . ㅠㅠ . Then went back , listening to A-lin songs . ALL the way back to sengkang then reach home at 12 midnight , everyone was saying the gate open at 12 , WRONG WRONG WRONG ! It opens at 11 . Thats why many people started praying before 11 =.= those ignorance idiots . I posted many ghost facts on my twitter , just go take a look and you see how ghost works . K bye have fun reading , kthxbye

OH YEAH ! ITS 7TH MONTH NOW , AND I AM GONNA BE VERYYY BUSYYYY ~

Just a mini post thus not counted la !

Every smile you see on my face doesnt mean im really laughing , its just not to let people worry about me .

Post 14 30/7/2011

So chiong home after school , then prepare then when reach the mrt , saw daryl , then he was actually meeting sungwoo and dejun at buangkok station LOL ! Then was like so excited to go in to USS ! WOOTS ! Played 'Revenge of the mummy' , Battlestar galatica , human and cylon , cylon was the most scariest ride and the most fun !! . Cos it like your feet is dangling in the air , and the speed , zrroomm here zroomm there . So fun la ~ Wa i like the most is actually the 360degrees turn part , after the ride i feel so giddy la , keep turn right and left . Then after playing the rides still have shrek the movie la , the dragon airway mini roller coaster . Not bad la . Just the waiting time which is so annoying la . Then we went for dinner LIKE FINALLY ! It was like a starving camp cos the things there are fxcking ex la , oh gosh i learnt 1 lesson ! Then i was like fighting the temptation of ice cream and bottle drinks , but after the ride i really BTH thus i went to buy the blueberry drink . Cost 4.50 but its definitely more worth it than those bottle drinks which cost $3 each . Almost faint when see the pricing . Then fianlly went to dinner like 2 hours later , i started complaining at 5.20pm and we finally get our dinner at 7.20 like starving camp . Then after our dinner , melvin , edmund , dejun and sungwoo , they go play the cylon again SIAO ! They play again nvm you know ? But they like play 4 in a row ? Its like 1 round come back they continue sit sia . Walao if i were there , i would vomitted all the stuff i ate and dizzy like 1 siao . They go play , the rest of us went to take pic , more like a cam whore LOL . After that the fireworks time ! Its was so dazzling la i think better than national day one la LOL ! After went to meet carmen , know some stuff and was thinking of some stuff , She left first then i was at there so called 'deep thinking' but most of it was emoing . Someone told me im really tired , Well i definitely am , but so ? Its like who cares right ? Secondly , that person told me it was ok for me to cry , i know its ok and its also our privilege , but i chose not to . I dont want to use tears to get pity from anyone and in my opinion , tears just make people look weaker . So was thinking of this stuff lorhs . But who can i depend on when im tired and feel like crying ? I cant think of anyone , is like everyone is having their own problems so cares about me right ? Esp. that person who told me that . I feel like saying out what i feel and how i feel but i definitely know that i cant ! Cos once i say everything out , EVERYTHING will change ! It may affect me la , but its better that it affect me only rather than implicating so much people right ? Maybe this is too much for me to handle but still i try to take in everything till the end . Anyway i shall post more pics at tomorrow post . IM TIRED ! PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY .

Idk you are reading anot ? But im telling you this , im just like you . You also never tell me anything , is i found on my own , cos you didnt want to people to worry for you or etc.. Same goes to me , if i say out my thoughts , so many people will be so uncomfortable with it ? Why dont i just 扛下全部的东西 . Right ? Shall end my post now with lyrics again !

我寂寞寂寞就好，这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱 ～

Post 13 28/7/2011

So start of the post i shall into you guys with my godmother (:

Tada 馬小玲！Cool right ?! KK i know

I shall show you guys 王伯 too ok ?

Sorry the pic quality not good cos he too active hard to take pic . so yea so lets start my post !

Today school was fucked up . Before was sending sms and those sms was fxcking emo la . Im impress with myself of my skill with those tears ~ After recess . Wa seriously damn fxcked up thus i shall not elaborate . Then geog lesson we went to haven for CD lesson . Everything was fine cos of the aircon , UNTIL some annoying bastard go hit my thigh with his knee cap , my leg like maciam no strength like that , fxcker , then when people want retaliate he run . humji dog _|_ Knn , maciam i no temper like that . Then was supposed to go work i was like chionging like 1 mad kid cos i was rushing to work , TILL my mum called and ask where am i ? I didnt expect my mum to call me , so bobian LL must go to kovan lie my mum that im buying some stuff , cos i didnt tell her beforehand -.- ARGHH ! Then went to take my new specs . Then go home , of cos la . Sure got scam some money from my parents for tomorrow outing ! HAHAHAHA ! k SHALL END HERE (: of cos with a lyrics again .

原諒我當天不懂得珍惜　只知任性
壞事情
唯願你此刻可於虛空中　將心聆聽
將來若真的再有個約會會完成
真的會再有這樣深情
我以天為証　跟你帶領
我以天為証　請你帶領

Post12 27/07/2011

This is what i feel now , Before break lesson was going on smoothly . But i was like emoing during break , writing down lyrics of 沒關係，愛太痛and寂寞寂寞就好. Then shawn nic saw what was i writing then he still correct my mistake on 的 as it was suppose to be 得LOL paiseh die ! During art , while i was painting , i suddenly had those feelings again . But its was much more worse this time . Whenever i think , i cant breath , so i was trying to breath and Pea thought i was having asthma , LOL . But seriously i like cannot breath , suffocated , that will the be word i will use .

I was like this fish below , its like i cant breath you know ?! K I KNOW ! I repeated many times ! ARGH ! Its like im a fish above and i was out of my comfy water . Then after awhile my breathing went back to regular . Last time , my feel like my heart was twisted , now even my lungs are too . Am i having some disease ? After that i was like chionging graded assignment at the library , When doing halfway it happen again , but luckily , the graded assignment snatch back the concentration la , if not i really dont know what will happen ~ After that chiong home and TADA im here blogging . Tomorrow even if i dont want , also must go work for 2 bloody reasons , FIRST , pass toothbrush to sis's godfather , secondly EARN MONEY TO SPEND AT USS ! Oh gosh , 2more days only la . kk Shall end here with lyrics too ? HAHA

能不能不愛了應為愛太痛了~因爲愛太痛了

我痛的快死了，卻無法把你忘了~

Post 11 26/7/2011

Dont bother to say what happen in school . fucked up . Then went to work . then went eating while waiting for SOMEONE to give block . Selina told me something . idk where its true or not la ? As you know cancer need security and stability thus i cant trust people easily . but only 1 person i really can trust which is carmen ! Ok ~ Who knows , maybe she tell all my secrets away . So i was fxcking disappointed and upset when selina told me that . I was like wtf ? Dont want me come just say la . Then went to work with CARMEN with a heavy heart . Then while doing , recieved a call from cherkai , wa hot sia . Its like people is feeling down or something , then i still ask you eh do this leh , faster leh , urgent leh . Seriously this is like so bastard la ? At most i dont go then help you all pay the remaining one la . Must say till like this meh ? Hais then total sale is 11 . not bad la . Hais . Then thursday going work again cos need pass toothbrush to someone then i got money to spend at uss . Then went to calculate our toothbrush at a stairs , then i suddenly heard yanhao sms tone , then i was like omg !? where is he sia ? When i walked down the stairs then i saw him ! i was like chuatio then carmen chuatio also . Then was walking to the mrt , damn bastard sia someone . Pangseh me . Fucker . Shall end off with a lyrics

沒關係，痛苦給我，幸福留給你和她~你真的不用來我回憶裏微笑~人本來就寂寞的，我總會把你戒掉~

Post #10 25/7/2011

I now like no mood to go anywhere now . I cant believe this is all happening . Am i a jinx to them ? After i come , many stuffs had happen . This happen , that happen . After i come there is not even a day we can work normally . Sure got some stuff will happen , but what hit me and impact me the most is the news today . I cant believe it , its like a nightmare . But we shall not drop a tear . Cause once you dropped a tear , it means that you are not believing in miracle . Isnt it ? Oh seriously , i hope thursday is a good day for me . I scare i can no longer control the tears which i like hold it in for the past few days ? Im like now putting A-Lin songs on repeat . Things does happen for a reason , but im afraid it might because of me . Seriously i dont think i got mood to go USS anymore . I shall go to work tomorrow . I think i maybe will go ?

Post#9 25/7/2011

Today school was so boring la . Did nothing fun at all .. Thus shall just skip the school part . Boring die -.- . After school i was like 1 mad person rush to vivo to meet carmen for lunch .. Who knows ?! I reach already she also havent reach , Wapiang . Faint ! Then ate mac , had a heart to heart talk with her . I think she is the currently the only one who i can really pour ALL my heart to . She like will zip up things she shouldnt say . But things like should be said , but asked her not to say , she will still say , i guess she knows what is right bah . Then found out something about ... I felt guilty mad when carmen told me . I feel like spoiled brat that day and he was already in a bad mood la . But he never got angry with me . I feel like a bastard sia . Then wa today i tell you , dk should cry or faint . Call Mr. Lai Yanhao to book the USS tix . Then he tell me he doesnt have any printer . WALAO ! I really almost puke blood . But luckily he will settle everything . well he better do . LOL ! Im so excited for the USS this friday ! its like 4 more days ! YAY ! But thursday i go chiong work first . earn more money better kekeke ^^ . kk i shall stop here right now (: Bye readers . 明知道我爱你，却不敢靠近你，假装不在意，反而痛了自己，多痛都可以，不能没有你。只想永远永远爱你。你不知道我也没关系～

Post #8 24/07/2011

Sorry readers . sorry not to blog for 2 days , I KNOW ! ITS BEEN 2 DAYS !

Friday , was a fxcking depressing day for me . Heard something which makes me feel blank out . Its just so stunning and unexpected . Shall not elaborate since its all in the past ! Then went home like fxcking moodless . But oh well ~ Then i almost cried lah , Wapiang but as i said 郭家的人，不能为这种小事而掉一滴眼泪 . So i didnt hahas . Or maybe i learned how to controlled tears yea ? But controlling your tears aint making you feel better , but it does not make you look weaker .

Saturday . When i straight wake up i think of that matter again and almost cried AGAIN . But oh well i didnt AGAIN ! lol ~Then went to bishan to sent brother to the dk what thing , stupid dumb matter . Waste my time only . After that went to work . Was sitting at the park alone thinking of some stuff there suddenly 2 police cameby . The female was nice and friendly . Just took down my particulars . Unlike the male one . So arghh ! Told him my mum is a malaysian , so she cant speak english but he say your mum can speak malay right ? Eh please , who say malaysian must know how to speak malay , pure dumbness . Then still guailan me , your mum know how to speak spanish ? Wa so rude sia . Then called my mum lorh , they police mah , i also lanlan . Then called , my mum picked up and talked to him , in the end he got owned in my face . Then he act big , you know what place is this ? Then blah blah blah ,, like waste my time only ? Then went to work with CARMEN . Seriously i love working with her , she motivates me like , omg i must win her , but oh wells but i always didnt . ARGH ! hahas . Then went home early with a sale of 12 . NOT BAD . OKAY ?! IMPROVED . But still far from my best record 23 ! argh !

Sunday- Woke up , make a new spec went to cut hair at my mum shop . Wa seriously i hate my hair quality ! Rough and hard . Walao . In my family only my hair quality is like that de . Went to work with that disgusting hairstyle . Got teased by Chris and yanhao . Seriously feel like slapping them . Luckily only both of them , Roy , Xuanyin , Carmen and simon didnt lahs . Long-Ge is neutral ok ? but idk they got say anot lahs, but at least they didnt say it infront of me . Carmen-Jie also got tease abit , argh but nvm i can forgive her .

Then work to block 63-64 . Seriously block 63-66 is connected la . I dont bear to sell to the people who are living there . They like have a hard time enjoying fast food like normal teenagers . Then want their parents to buy a fantastic toothbrush from me , i will feel guilty la . Suddenly i think im a 外冷内热的人. Cos i do kind deeds like without letting people knowing . Like today i was sitting on the train . I saw 1 uncle then i just stand up from my sit and let him la . but i didnt say it was for him . I think its pointless la . What ? Give them seat maciam need whole mrt know like that . I just stand up quietly lorh . Then do block 161 , wa i love that block la , i do 1 hour then till 4th floor , sold all 15 , HA ! Pro ~ Then went to find yanhao . Then talk about why chris treat me like this , and it was all because of RESPECT . Then talking about only i knows , or maybe not . But who knows if was truth or fake la . Then went home . K posted very long .

Post#7 21/7/2011

Today was a mad day for me tired max . After racial harmony day , the celebration is ridiculous , talking about HDB flats ? WHAT THEE FXCK ?! Anyway after school , went back home , USED WALKED ! Wa 7mins reach home , imagine how fast i walk ?ＺＲＯＯＭ～ Then bathe , reach lakeside . Meet , Yanhao , Chris , ChenKai and Carmen ~ Played badminton with Yanhao , i maciam sore loser sia , freeze his score at 10 LOL . Anyway then went to eat , after eating slack from 1830 to 1930 . Went to do with carmen again ! WOOTS . I love doing with her man . Is like doing with her more fun lorh . Rather then doing alone . SIAN DIE ! Then sold 10 but it was a target set by yanhao , work 1 hour and 30mins to be exact i think i earned 20-30 . Eh not bad liao hor . I miss the days i sold 20+ and expecting the days for me to hit 30 and above ! I CAN DO IT ~ Then that 15year old guy , fxcking ZAI . 9 packets of toothbrush . Nabei . Disgrace sia me . Hais . SO I SHALL Hit 30 ! ARGHH . Then melody sold 3 , still remember what i sms yanhao , but i forgot to do the action LOL. kk shall sleep now . time check 23.09 . Shall post more tomorrow . Bye readers (:

Post#6 20/7/2011

Just called selina and heard that is a newcomer , and thus all of them ignore her . When i heard this i scare they will do this to me sia . If they do this me idk how kisiao will i be you know , maybe when doing will hide 1 corner in the stairs and cry ? The feeling of them so called 'pang-sehing' you is really not good . Shouldnt post too much things about the newcomer , just incase i 惹到他们。

Post#5 20/7/2011

Seriously i so fxcking mentally tired . Sometimes ah i think if im girl things much will be more easier ? Isn't it ? I guess this sentence only selina get what it means . School life really sucks now , I thought sec 1 and 2 was very bad already but NOW . Tsk Sec 3 is much more worser than sec 2 . Then today after SSP nua at home . Nothing to do at all like seriously ? Then today did art , need to do draw a portrait of someone , wanted to draw yanhao de , but no pic then tried huimin fail ~ ohgosh in the end i draw 马小玲. Not bad sia ~ Shall post the pic tomorrow . REALLY LOVE THE ART MAN ! Then tomorrow going to lakeside to find them to DO . Im so tired . I really need a shoulder , looks like recently a lot of people is having problems with their love life . Including me . Shall end here now . I think tomorrow's post will be much more longer , so Ciaos ~

Post #4 19/7/2011

Look at the long road . I will be waiting for you while walking forward . But after walking so long i still dont see you chasing up .

Well was intending to take bus home , but after receiving some sms-es , i walk home EMO-LY . I think i this kind of person emo will very 恐怖 ! well and i did emo ok . was walking and listen to alin songs and just nice 寂寞寂寞就好 after that is 没关系 , OMG both songs maciam sequel in my opinion . The lyrics really tell what my heart feels . I never thought you will have this plan , but oh well . Shall end here , and go emo in a corner . Bye .

Post #3 19/7/2011

Currently at computer lab now blogging here . You know the school damn lousy . No aircon at all , even got aircon also no air . HOT dao ~ I am suppose to do some forums . but im here blogging , HEY i love my blog ok ? Anyway read huimin and selina's blog . Found out that selina's blog all about having problems . While huimin's blog is all about FUN AND FOOD . (no wonder~) After reading selina's blog i think my blog post maciam sai like that , like random posting . Thus i shall post something emo or problems after school . Cos im racing against time at school . hais , 5 more periods ! HANG IN THERE ! NIGEL YOU CAN DO IT ! FIGHTING !~ Anyway ciaos readers .

Post #2 18/7/2011

如果人有两条路，第一条是抱着一丝的希望迈向你的梦想。第二条是一个黑暗的悬崖。那我宁愿走第一条路，应为至少我对我的梦想还抱着一丝的希望 . 2nd day of blog and TADA im back . Maybe i shall try to update my blog more often man , Well since is 2nd day only , who knows i maybe lazy to blog anymore . Anyway today was a SUAY day for me . Walao the bus come liaos then in the end the bus cannot board . WALAO then i late you know ?! Fucking hell . but luckily though is 2nd time i late but the 1st time is not counted . Thus i only counted late once . So if tomorrow i SUAY SUAY late again , i sure walk home , i already ask my family's permission they even ask me come back home BETTER . LOL maybe they can save my allowance , WHATEVER LOL . Then after school went to lunch with Lynn , Nanfeng and Joniel ! HA , after lunch 3 of us played kartrider rush , LOL all gone kisiao . After that i went home , bath and changed . Prepare to meet my DEAREST LYH (: ! Sounds wrong .... Who cares ?! Its my blog anyway ? (L) ! LOL ! Then buy cupwalker then do , sold 9 only but i think not bad , fernvale leh somemore do 2hours nia got earn 20+ which means 1hour $10+ . NOT BAD LIKE SERIOUSLY ?! Kays , anyway . Finally , im waiting for selina to invite to her MYSTERIOUS , SECRETIVE BLOG . Slow sia she ... Well anyway i learn 1 moral today , believe in hope is better than living in despair . WHATEVER sounds a bit stupid but who cares ?! LOL . K shall stop here now . Happy Reading followers !

Post #1 17/7/2011

K im back to blogging doesnt care whether read it anot . Who cares ?! I happy can liaos right . HAHA . Lets talk about holidays . Well the first week is fxcking boring la . remedial here and there , hais . Then wanted to work and the Lynn introduced me one and im fxcking happy with it , met new friends and 1 ddong ddong noona , LMAO . And of course , there are some fxcking irritating bastards out there , who loved to bastard me . And for the sake of GOD . Get a life . ARGH . Anyway i watched Harry Potter . And it was plain stupid at the end . Kill Horcruxes , like that harry potter can win him liaos . Of cos with the elder wand disobeying voldemort then harry die then got Resurrect with the Resurrection stone ,. then 1 final blast , his dead and turned into ashes . I thought the ending will be fxcking amazing la . I think it will be better if each of them faces one death eater like harmonie versus

Bellatrix Lestrange . WA LIKE THAT THEN NICE WHAT !!! Then finally ends with 19years later ,where harry got 3 children and ron got 2 . and blah blahb lah blash . Lets end off here man . Its now 1.18 and there is fxcking school tomorrow . Haish . Sad die me . I shall end it off with a secret HA !

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