I swear its damn long since i blogged well, was busy with work. Right now, im facing a life that requires courage and perseverance. Well, this is mainly because i actually might not be able to get into any polytechnics because i failed my Science. By 1 grade i could have made it to poly sigh.. Hence, im now waiting for the appeal results to come out and pray dammnn hard so that i can enter in to Republic Poly or Nanyang poly! This friday need to head down to Nanyang poly to hand in my DAE form. I really hope i can go in! So, i hope theres vacancies so that my chances will increase! LOL!
After receiving my results, i got some encouragement from friends and relatives. Which is such a surprise because i thought some of my relatives will criticize me with their judgmental remarks. Anyway i felt like banging my head against the table like the gif below when i saw my results.
Work at Robinsons had come to an end after nearly 1 month. I miss all my colleagues over there, especially Dora( Sabariah), Annie and Siti. I swear with them around, i just keep on laughing and laughing. Sadly, they doesnt need anymore manpower thus i cant entend my stay over there. Found a job in changi freight as packer but my role is more towards data entry. Everyday have to wake up at 6:15! My goodness, even more hardworking than schooling times. Since its now 31/1 which means its my last day today! Im damn happy this job is only for 1 week because the location is damn far otherwise i dont mind continuing my stay over there. Anyway got to stop here. Bye
Come to think of it. I dont think i will get to see your face that frequently again. Normally i can see your face almost like everyday where its like a pleasant routine for me. However, After god knows what happen, i dont think we can meet other anymore. Its like you're avoiding me, what can i do? Nothing, sigh..
Time passes quickly whenever you look back. 9months, not very long but not that short either because 9months equal approximately of 270 days. 270 days.. I'm such a fool. I wanted to confront you however i dont have that courage as im afraid things might get screwed up more. But, now im here thinking, maybe i can call you out for dinner and let the both of us talk about this. C'mon i dont think you will agree. I shall just let nature take its course. I just hope whoever's up there can bless me.
I wish you luck for everything you do. I think without me in your life, you might live more carefree. Afterall, im just a extra in your life that irritates you. Everytime i read our conversation in the past, i always think what happen? What just in the world happen to cause us have such a drastic change. Because of the rumors? Yourself? Me? I dont know...
However, im not giving up yet but i wont do anything either. I will just let this tiny secret take in my heart. Just like what you sang. Im a lonely satellite. Bottle up those feelings, lip sealed. Watch you live your life to the fullest.
Class chalet was quite awesome(?) even though its just the first day but I think not bad however, there's like only 16 people of us. Quite less for a class chalet. LOL! Okay I'm blogging this while everyone is asleep D: like a loner. Forever alone level X999!! T_T
Anyway I just realized, I didn't get to sleep on any bed for any class chalet. LOL! But i think it's okay? Okay seriously, I think I'm stopping here. Anyway I hate moths!
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
昨天，明天都抵不过一个现在。
And i think that this sentence is so true! Whats better than the "PRESENT", definitely not tomorrow nor the past.
Today's prom (maybe yesterday since this entry is posted at midnight) was awesome! People there were looking great, atmosphere was nice, emcee was funny and entertaining however nothing is perfect about the food! Less variety of choice, does not look appetizing at ALL! However ah, the teachers were eating other food which idk what is it. But got 1 pot of theirs look like SHARK FIN. LOOKS LIKE BUT SHARK FIN YOU KNOW?!
The last moment of prom was damn fun! Its like clubbing, everyone was showing off their skills or dancing randomly. I think best part for my table will be the moment when i sabo Jasmine to go up stage and dance to song of -Dancing Queen- I swear its damn epic! After prom, went supper with the usual ones except Val and Pea. D:
Anyway, regretted not going around to take pictures with other people other than my clique because i was feeling lazy and paiseh laaa. Skin thin, no choice. Cry in front of my laptop lor, sigh. Espically 2E6's peeps however took pictures with some of 2E6's people after prom hence the regretful level is lessen LOL!!
I still dont know what happen to cause this thing stopped till August but oh well lets hope things will get better as times pass. Sadly, we are going to different directions hence maybe tonight was my last chance to see some people. Still regretting why i didnt take picture with you -facepalm and bang head- Oh well, lets hope there is still chance and im definitely going to make things right! Ciaos.
Does anyone have a person you know then one fine day, both of you became strangers? I believe this happen to almost everyone because it happened to me too...
Lets start with yesterday, apparently some idiots have no upbringing at all, its like oi your mum never teach you manners ah? You tell me, except for this kind of people who will go around saying "fuck your mum" then dont blame people for cursing your mum at the end of the day, faggot! Well, people will say if you do that, you're no difference from him. Yes, at some point, however those idiots need to be taught a lesson with their OWN medicine.
Well having iPhone is not a big deal, i bet out of 10 people 6 people have it. Then can you enlighten me why the fuck must i work in red light districts to earn 3dollars a night? Excuse me, my father no money to pay for me ah? Please, use your fucking brain for ONCE! So let me guess, is that how you earn your allowance. Well if i only earn 3bucks a night, i bet you had to fork out 3000dollars to have someone to have sex with you since you're such a disgust.
Anyway...
Today i had like a worst depression in my entire life. Initally i was fine until during EL ssp, had too much free time and start to think of some stuffs. Of course, the saddest part of me came out. Literally almost cried from thinking those stuffs. Its like small small stuffs add together, woah FML.
I seriously dont know whats happening to us. I dont whether you are lazy, sleeping or dont even bother to reply. It make me that im bothering you, irritating you. If i am, you can jolly tell me. Its been 5 months since we started this thing and it all changed after July. Oh well, i really dont know what to do now. Other then singing songs at the top of my lungs, i really dont know what else can i do.
If i talk to you about all these, you will definitely get pissed, then whats the point of us talking. Oh well, i just let fate do all those stuffs.
